I have so many things rolling around in my head, all of them would make a "good" blog, I don't know which one to do first or how to word the beginning of any of them. So, hopefully I will be able to find the time to get all of them out of my head and onto "paper".
The thing I've been thinking about most lately is how do I possibly fit everything into a day that I need to. I mean really!? Do other moms actually fit all this in and have a "balanced" life. Here's what I feel like I SHOULD be doing every day and only really accomplish all of them in about a week. Please let me know if I'm way out in left field with this stuff because I totally feel like I have friends who do this stuff every day. I feel like I should be doing devotions/having prayer time every day, keeping a perfectly clean house, playing with my Lily, being sure to stick to her schedule while still helping Grace to figure out her schedule, eating well and making sure that Lily eats well and we both get enough water, make sure that I exercise, cook dinner, and be sure to spend quality time with my husband and most important still have room in my brain to think about wanting to be "intimate", OH! and don't forget the importance of having a little "me" time.
Am I totally off my rocker? Have I been reading too many parenting magazines? Do I just have a skewed view of other people's lives? I try not to compare but it's hard not to and I feel, so frequently, like I fall short. Maybe I just fall short of my own perfectionist, control freak expectations. But I often feel like if this whole homemaker thing was a JOB with a BOSS I'd have been fired long ago :).
Please don't mistake this as complaining or fishing for compliments, it's not. I'm just seeking to "feel out" the thoughts of others out there.
I think you are being to hard on yourself and expecting to much of yourself. I've been dealing with the same issues because I felt my husband expected all of that from me and I think he did until he was home this weekend and saw how tired I was and how I can't do it all right now. He actually said that when he is laid off and at home starting next week, he will help me with cleaning the house. It is important to take time for yourself ( I need to do the same) and ask people for help if you need it.
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