We had her 2 month check up today and all's well. She's in the 25th percentile in all catagories. The only thing we are keeping an eye on is a persistent rash that the dr. thinks is an allergy to some kind of detergent or scent. Since I've already changed her soap to dove and lotion to Cetaphyl, we're pretty sure it's the laundry detergent. So, I'm off to see if I can find an Arm & Hammer detergent that is scent free (Arm & Hammer is one of the only brands that Lily and I aren't allergic to). Also, she is still crossing one eye every once in a while. My mom-intuition says it's not a big deal and I'm not too worried about it but if it persists into next month we'll have it checked out.
I had to take Lily with me to Gracie's appointment--which I knew would be hard--because I didn't have a babysitter. When the nurse came in and gave Grace her immunizations Lily was as upset as Grace was. She cried and yelled at the nurse, "Stop that! She doesn't like it! You're making her cry! SHE'S BLEEDING!!" I had flashes of them in school five or six years from now, the same words ringing from Lily's mouth as she charges the bully to defend her little sister. I'm sure it also didn't help that I couldn't hold back the tears either. And when I took the purple, screaming Grace off the table to soothe and nurse her Lily sat beside me and softly sang her favorite lullaby.
I don't know what the difference is between when Lily was tiny and now Gracie. With Lily, I never cried when she got shots or during the PKU test or even when she got hurt. Maybe it was the PPD (post pardum depression) I had after Lily that made me just separated enough that it didn't touch me deeply enough for "shows of emotion". I don't know what it is (and it's not that I love one more than the other!) I just can't seem to hold back my tears when her's start flowing or when she's upset and it seems to be something I can't fix. I suppose it's just one more thing to add to the list of differences between my daughters.
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